I don’t know what I want..

Sometimes I think about how happy I am single. I’m not constantly worrying why someone won’t hit me up or what they think about me or impressing them or analyzing every little thing. I do things for ME and not someone else. Im myself completely without worrying about looking dumb or immature. Having a guy in your life is a time consumer. And my mind is more at rest and not over thinking. But then I have those moments.. Moments when I realize how much I miss just having someone. Someone to talk to when I’m lonely, late at night, or just when I want to talk to someone. Someone that makes me smile and gives me that nice fuzzy feeling because I know someone cares about me. Having someone hold me in their arms and never wanting them to let go. All those little things people take for granted. But I feel as though all those things come with a price that I’m not ready to pay, a risk I’m not ready to take. I want to meet someone who makes me a priority in their life, but I’m scared to open up to anyone. How can I meet someone being as closed as I am?